MY THOUGHTS AND IDEAS...

19 मार्च का दिन था।हम सब परिणाम का इंतजार कर रहे थे।तभी मेरे मित्र ईशान का फोन आया कि परिणाम आ चुके हैं और उसने मात्र ५ अंक प्राप्त किए हैं।मैं आश्चर्य चकित था कि जब इसने इतना बुरा प्रर्दशन किया है तो मेरा क्या हुआ होगा।मैं झट से दौड़कर अपना परिणाम भी देखने पहुँचा,और पाया कि मेरी रेैन्क भी उम्मीद से काफी कम मात्र ११५७ रह गई।थोड़ा झटका तो जरूर लगा पर चूंकि सफलता की आस कुछ वक्त पहले उस मित्र से बात कर के लगभग समाप्त सी हो गई थी,तुरंत ही उस झटके से  उबर भी गए।मेरा एक और दोस्त भी साथ था,उसकी रैन्क मेरे से बेहतर करीब ५०० थी।थोडी खुशी हुई पर उसकी भी दाखिला लेने की संभावना काफी कम है,ऐसा हमें कुछ देर बाद पता चला। तुरंत ही पिछला एक साल आँखों के सामने खड़ा सा हो गया।मन में आया कि इतनी पढाई कर के भी सफलता हाथ न लगी। कहीं वक्त बरबाद तो नहीं हो गया? कहीं हम गलत रास्ते तो नहीं चल दिए?  फिर अपने मन को समझाते हुए मैं घर पहुँचा,तो यह पाया कि मेरी सफलता असफलता का प्रभाव  मेरे प्रियजनों पर ज्यादा नहीं पड़ता।मैंने भी औपचारिक तौर पर यह बता दिया कि इस बार भी नहीं हो पाया।फिर अपनी किताबे...

A trip to places like Haridwar and Rishikesh is always a source of peace,joy and spirituality and when we went to these places this month, it was no different.We had some free time and I along with my two other friends decided to visit Haridwar as well as Rishikesh for a short 4 day trip.As I had spent my childhood in a nearby town,naturally these places were well travelled by me . Day-1:Bus to Haridwar We got up early in the morning,at around 0445,hurriedly got dressed up,called each other and ran off to the ISBT at kashmiri gate to catch an early bus to Haridwar.I was extremely careful to catch the bus as early as possible because of the traffic at the border growing up a few hours later.We expected to catch the bus at around 0700,but as it always happens,we were delayed by around 30 minutes and managed to board the bus as 0730.It was a smooth journey,early in the morning a lot of fresh air poured in,later as it was not too hot,we enjoyed riding the bus in the bri...

Buddhism as a teaching has a very important place in my life.First of all,I've been brought up in a hindu brahmin family and deliberately or otherwise,we as children were never exposed to this wonderful therapy offered by Buddha himself.I consider it a therapy as it offers solutions to some of the very common problems we face in our lives,which can be said true of any therapy we talk about. I was attracted though,towards the teachings of Buddha,on account of a variety of reasons.My attraction to the culture of the far east as well as places like Tibet definitely has played a major role in my bent towards Buddhism.As I grew older and precisely in the teenage years when a lot of questions began arising in my mind regarding life and death,body and soul,happiness and sorrow,good and bad and much more,I could not find any answers.A lot of frustration arose as a result of that.Further,I was looking for some ideas to adhere to,some teachings to believe in.Now,as a hindu you don...

If there was one thing I was not expecting was this sudden nothingness I have been experiencing these days!I don't think this will last much long but still every day I spend doing nothing pains me deeply.I feel like I should be doing a lot of things but the reality is I spend entire day at home doing nothing.I don't want to study as I have been doing the same for the past so many years.As soon as I am free I'll run off to some hill station for a week or so.This will suddenly kill a lot of nothingness in  my life. Well,the results re about to come and frankly speaking,I'm not that positive about it.So I don't have a lot of expectations and I'm seriously considering planning for the exams ahead in June.It will be do or die for us and we don't have many options left as far as admissions are concerned.My time these days is being spent or less worrying about my future which is not far from normal of course!But really,things need to change. Of all things I hate,m...

For the last 8 months,I have been sitting at home,studying for the entrance exams.As the exams are over for the time being,I feel lonely and work less these days.I get bored easily on account of this.It has been almost a week since I opened any book or did anything meaningful.I have been sitting,the only active work being going to the tuition classes 4-5 days a week.With the academic year about to end,this too will halt for the time being. As I was studying for an entrance exam,I had a study plan.If I manage to clear the exams,I'll be very happy about the success of my plan while if I don't I'll feel sorry about wasting time for so long.Frankly speaking,once you fail everything you did in the way appears wrong and everything you did not do hurts.But whatever,whether I succeed or fail,one thing is clear and it is that I managed to kill a lot of time doing some work or the other.Initially,I framed up a study schedule and managed to follow it till the end.I had a lot of ...

Well,the day I had been waiting for almost an year has passed and it did not happen as expected.I had been preparing hard for the exam,and yet things did not get the way i wanted them to.I do not hope to get good marks in the exam,hence there is a lot of frustration and depression accompanying it,which I have to withstand now. Yes it feels bad when you fail after hard work.I can't help but feel frustrated now.I did what ever I could,I studied things over and over again,but things took the wrong turn.Every story has some positives and the positive I can draw from this almost failure is that I worked hard on the concepts and it should benefit me in the long run.Now the future seems uncertain for a variety of reasons: A).I failed in three consecutive exams,and the morale is really down. B).I don't believe I can study harder than this. C).A lot of expectations from myself sometimes pulls me down! But I have to pick myself up and prepare for the examinations ahead.Right now,I have ...

As children,we are a born innocent,carefree and of course we love unconditionally.As we grow up,in the society,we are taught that certain things are right ,while certain things are wrong and we begin shaping up our personalities accordingly.We are taught that certain values within us are agreeable while some are not.Some things we should develop some things we should not.Soon after we begin to see the good and bad of the world.We too realize everything is not that rosy in here,as we used to believe in childhood.The world does seem harsh on us at times and sometimes we feel like we have been hit hard. I want to focus on the personality that we develop all through this.As we grow older the only thing we carry forward are our personalities.I am a firm believer in reincarnation and I think the personalities are carried forward through different lifetimes.But I'll not talk about reincarnations here,let's get limited to this life itself.From childhood to death it is only ...