MY THOUGHTS AND IDEAS...

I'm really alone these days.There does not seem anyone to support me but the good thing is that i don't feel the need for approval.I disagree with a lot of people and sometimes things get real bad and I am almost on the verge of losing myself over it.Today too in the morning I started something I should not have and had some consequence which is unfavourable.Actually I talked too much and sometimes you have the 'foot in your mouth' moment and it happened to me..well,almost.I started boasting about something and things got into a realm of personal ego clash,which i do usually abstain from. I feel whenever we have communication,its our character more than the words which has the value.I have not spent enough time creating my character and now I'm paying off.Well even though I did not pay attention to these things earlier,I do now and will continue to do until I fix my character.So I'm myself in a lot of doubt over my character let alone others.The thing is that

Sometimes I feel clueless.I don't know where I'm going and i'm  not sure about my ways eventually leading to a lot of confusion.But then is that it?Where does it all lead to?I don't know I'm confused these days and the only way forward seems to be the one prescribed by religion. Being a non believer is essential but the everything has its price.By choosing to be a non believer,I've started doubting everything.Now I don't believe some essential things which seems familiar for someone on a spiritual path.This is the only solace I get these days.Not believing in religion,denying the existence of a controller and a lot of atheism has taken me into a realm from where I can't possibly return but then I don't want to!Of course I don't find like minded people which I expected earlier and therefore there is a hint of loneliness as well in my life.I'd be as honest as possible as this is the place where I put down whatever is inside me. What I see amon