MY THOUGHTS AND IDEAS...

The year 2013 is about to end and everyone is busy discussing what they did this year and what they did not.New plans are being made,new year proposals as well as a lot of wishing.On the TV too t he news guys too are busy reviewing the entire year and there is a kind of typical new year atmosphere. I am also considering looking back at this year but this year I don't plan it by doing the usual what went right,what went wrong kind of analysis.This is too boring at least for me.I mean I won't be remembering events happened in the course of this year,rather I'd be throwing them off of the head if they come by.It is useless kind of thing.Looking at the past and discussing is just a waste of time,I feel.As it means, no analysis of the year passing right now for me.The good things,the bad things they have been done and will result accordingly. No wasting my time over it. So then it leaves me with nothing but the present to look at.And at present I feel a little down.No...

I feel like writing about myself after a long time.By the way through penning down ideas about my personal self here I get a lot of benefits as I don't have to go about troubling someone with my life story.Well,ever since I got into this whole mindfulness practice,I have honestly followed it while sometimes getting off the road although through ignorance itself. As far as I have read,I think it is not sufficient to be confined only to books in order to enjoy the present moment.I have some memories of the past which pull me down and as everyone else I wish there was a 'men in black' sort of flash which could erase everything but hey it's real life and things don't get done that way here.We have to face the consequences.I have been harsh on myself till date an now I realize this approach of mine towards myself is not working at all.In fact all the negative thought I had in my mind seems now to be centered on me as I don't have anyone to hate!So it requires immedi...

The breaks definitely have a lot of positives for me as I can get an insight of the path I’ve been following over a certain period.This year as I’ve been traversing a different path with my new revamped point of view towards life,it’s been even more helpful to have a break at the moment.Well I’ve never been a person who hesitates from finding fault in himself so it is not a big deal analysing the errors I committed in recent times.Some have been ignorable while some have brought with themselves a lot of shame as well as a lesson and induced resolve to never ever repeat them in future.I’ll not go in details about the errors I committed as I think the best way and timing to look at them is the moment they were committed.This way we can even correct ourselves more accurately. Even though I’ve not a lot of things to do at my home,I don’t think I get bored.I’ve collected a few items to read in spare times and I don’t think there has been a moment when I thought what to do next.But the fac...

There is no reason why we should not be cheerful in day to day life.Bearing a cheerful face is the first and most significant impact which we have on any individual.It signifies a lot of things.Confidence and good health are two of them.We often have interaction with a lot of people ordinarily and most of them we don't know.So I feel pity about those people who put up a sad looking face just to gain some emotional support!Anyways people have different ways of handling life and I'm no one to interfere. Now what I have been focusing these days on,is self control.I don't know how to describe it in words but by application of it I mean a lot of things which don't even come close to things like self control.It goes well beyond it.In short I'm a bit wayward and for the first time in my life I feel totally lacking in understanding of myself.On the one hand I feel like some very normal guy with a very easy going life and then suddenly I find out it is not that s...

A lot of time my behaviour becomes impulsive.There is a sudden impulse and here it goes.It is not that bad a thing unless you have control over the circumstances.I don't,so sometimes it takes a toll on me.I feel like I'm wasting a lot of time over nothing.I usually don't have a lot of things to do at my home apart from studying and watching TV when I'm bored so it hurts more.I sometimes feel like I'm really not doing anything productive and that if it goes like this I'll fail. I don't know but I am about to complete my graduate studies here and the way forward does not seem very clear.I've thought a lot over it and even today I've been thinking over it and yet no conclusions.One thing is that I have to go along what my heart feels like good but then the fear of failure!I guess you gotta get over it.All of us try and fail its no big deal.But we should have the courage to pick ourselves up after failure in order to succeed.I miss a lot of out...

Irrespective of the circumstances does it seem acceptable that the thought of a particular woman destabilizes an otherwise sane man?I won't accept it but sadly the person in mention here is me itself.The thought of this woman has haunted me for the past few months and I've not b een to get over it.A lot of times my mood just gets upset or some of my important work gets ruined and I feel helpless over it.Right now I was thinking about her and now I feel like I should not be doing this.How to get over it?Well,as far as my limited knowledge is concerned,lust is powerful and even the mightiest of men can be grasped by it.How to overcome this power of lust and get a peaceful and proper life is something I am working on but till date I've tasted only failure. Yeah a lot of people say what's in a woman!I too think so but the thought of the woman stirs up emotions which eventually get out of the hand and I end up doing something totally unexpected.The mind suddenly g...

Being in the village certainly brings about with itself, a lot of goodies for me.I after some planning decided to spend my mid semester break,in my village.It had been quite some time since I spent a week in my village and hence a visit seemed almost necessary.Well there was not much time for a reserved seat and hence I was forced to spend my time sitting 16 hours in the train.It was not much of a difficulty and I reached Patna at midnight after starting from home in the morning.Well to my surprise I found the station clean and hygenic,something I did not expect,not in Patna at least!Well I then boarded a bus in the morning and the trip was more enjoyable than I had expected as the roads have become extremely comfortable nowadays in Bihar and I was home at around 10.People in the village are extremely nice and the contrast seems completely when you just arrive form a city like Delhi. Well it is festive season here and Durga Puja is everywhere in the environment.People are extre...