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JUST MOVING ON-31


Another week of my otherwise very routine life passes away and as I sit down and look back there is not much to think over regarding the past few days although there have been some very embarrassing moments,I feel.
Well,life itself is a learning curve isn't it?We are here learning each and every day,sometimes we falter,the other day we jump around it's just like a child who is learning isn't it?Inside all this complicated personality there exists a child in each one of us.That may be observed as the ecstasy we feel when something very pleasing occurs.I feel,no matter how much we grow,how complicated we become on the outside the inside is the same.The other day I was being too harsh on myself over the mess I created until I realized it was not a big deal at all.Making mistakes is all right,as long as we acknowledge them and learn from them.
Living light is very important and since past few months,I've felt the futility of over complicating things when there is nothing to fuss over.I read one day-the less we possess,the lesser worries we have.Well,I think if applied emotionally,this works wonder.This is the reason why I don't get emotionally involved with any of the individuals I come across.When there is no responsibility on my shoulders I can be as free as imaginable.Of course there are a few worries as well.One of them is significant as it often pulls my morale down.It is thought of being a failure.There are moments when I feel I don't do anything and that I waste a lot of time and people with the same initial conditions as me are doing a lot more significant things with their lives,while I'm just sitting over.It surrounds me to such an extent that I lose all courage at that moment,and right then we need a friend to empower us.I too feel there need to be a hand on my shoulder convincing me,asking me not to lose hope.But I keep looking for it and can't find it.But then,lets see what life has in it for me,after all I'm on a learning curve!
We all have our areas of expertise and of course we can't expect one to perform well in every field.I'm more interested in the inner working of human minds and this thing fascinates me.People ask me my hobby and I'm like blank,what to say?I don't have usual football,nba,going to movies etc kind of hobbies anymore.I used to have them once but now?I don't have enough time for them.My hobbies have shifted to more bookish reading,writing,thinking stuff and I feel,people generally shy away from people like that.So what next for me?I may be thought of as a geek called Vivek.That'd be strange because a few day back I used to make fun of those people.I study a lot but I'm not bookish.I mean people meeting me for the first time still get the impression of a rude guy with no interest in subject and one who just gets enough to pass exams.Whatever it Is,I'm enjoying my life at present and thinking about the testing times ahead which might be a good opportunity to test the strength of my character and the determination of my will as well....

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