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JUST MOVING ON-63


For the past few months,as I graduated from college,I have been busy providing home tuitions to students.Although I have limited myself to just 2,it still consumes a lot of my time.Nobody has forced me into this,and of course if I have to succeed in this life and beyond I have to learn to work hard.

College was a different ball game altogether.We had pressure but we had equally funny ways to overcome it!We'd come up with ideas ranging from ridiculous to stupid,and it used to be all fun even amidst pressure.Here in real life,things are different.Nobody comes with any ideas here,we have to figure everything out ourselves.Working for 5 continuous hours and returning home on a chilly evening,all tired but nobody there to hear your problems!Yes it is the real life,and it gets tough with time.I have to get used to it,for the long run.

I have to study in the meantime as well and it is supposed to be my top priority.I have just entered the part where we have to maintain a perfect work study balance.I can't commit myself to either of them looking at the circumstances and I am talking about a few years from now.People have been doing that for years and I'm no different.I have to get used to such life.There is a lot of stress and the least I can do is to ignore it.I don't have a nature of victimizing myself,and thus I am all happy and cheerful when someone meets me.Stress is a part of life and we have to bear it.I have reduced a lot of factors contributing to the same,but the stress on the body and the mind for working long hours,can't be reduced,not at the moment.And by acknowledging it,I can do a lot good to myself.The body stress can easily be eliminated by a good sleep at night and as far as mental stress is concerned,I have enough ways to relax myself. I have a habit of traveling and spending time with people on sundays.It charges me up and proves to be a good time killer for the weekends.I often feel lonely though as I don't have a lot of immediate friends.Sometimes I just want to talk about myself,my aspirations,ideas etc but find no one interested.My parents are different kind of persons,not the ones I'd like to share my aspirations with,for sure.Then I am left with myself and often write down a lot of things which works quite well.

Time changes continuously and with that our perceptions change too.In fact everything changes,with time.I did not imagine I'd be here doing the things I am doing these days.But the key thing is that I was aware of the present and I'm still aware of my present.This is the most important thing,I think,if we talk about our day to day lives.There is so much to care for in the present that we don't need to waste time feeling guilty about the past.A few months back,I used to blame myself over a lot of things,as I felt I did a lot of wrong things,but what was I losing?I was losing an opportunity to live in,and enjoy the present which was guilt free of course.Now I do understand this,and thus one can't find me crying over the mistakes done in the past.

Now almost 6 months have passed since I finished college,there are around 6 more months before I join the next one,and in the meantime I have a lof of exams to appear in.This month has almost passed,and I'm through with almost the entire syllabus I assigned to myself.The only thing that has been lacking is my lack of enough practice.But if I manage to clear the exams,it won't be much of an issue.On the other side,it will be something extremely disappointing if I don't do.I aspire to become a scientist one day working in the best of science labs here,and if I don't manage to secure the admission I'll be forced to take up things I don't want to.I will eventually adapt but it will be a long and painful procedure,undesirable for sure.I have a habit of looking at the bright side,and I definitely hope to secure a good rank in the IIT-JAM coming ahead.When I'll do it,there will be a
lot to celebrate.I will have the opportunity to follow my dreams and then I can march towards success.Until then,even though I manage to sneak in tiny bits and pieces of pleasure but deep within there is a lot of restlessness indeed,which I can't reveal to anyone!

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