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JUST MOVING ON-61


So after quite some time,I'm back here writing once again!There has been a gap of about a month or so,and yes I felt like I was quite busy these days.The festivals have almost passed.We had a good Diwali week,it was fun.These days,I have been busy preparing for my entrance exams and sometimes though,I lose track.

A few days back,I set up a schedule and I have been almost following it till today,but there is a certain lack of concentration occasionally.I tend to lose my concentration quite often and it is not a helpful sign for me.I have been studying slowly but steadily and will be able to complete my syllabus in time.Now I have confidence and clearing the exams seems a good possibility but still there is some element of self doubt.I think it is necessary to keep our over confidence in check.I have been sitting at home for the past two months and now I am looking forward to getting out.In august,I had an opportunity to visit Varanasi for a week and I enjoyed it a lot.Now as I progress and November is about to pass,I think in the month of December I'll have some leisure time and I should make the most of it by getting out of here for some time.This will charge me up and will also help in boosting my preparation.

Meanwhile,here in Delhi,there is a trade fair coming up and like every year ,I will not be missing it.The weather is getting pleasant these days and yes winters are about to come.Personally,I love winters.We can travel throughout the day,enjoy the sunshine and then sip some hot tea wherever we might find it.Winters are fun.I usually get out on Sundays during the winter months and spend the day at some market or any other public place.The zoo is one of the best places to visit during the Sundays of the winter.Every Sunday seems like a picnic and the market places flooded with people is really a treat to watch.The only problem during the winter months is the amount of inertia we feel when getting out of our beds!Really,often at times it takes half an hour for me to get up and pick up my toothbrush in the washroom!

These winters are going to be monotonous as far as I am concerned.I don't have to go to college regularly,I don't have to spend time with my friends,all I am left with is the study.So i have to study on a daily basis and with Sundays off I'll try to beat the monotony.In the immediate future,I plan to get out of here for 4-5 days probably in December so that I can recharge myself,and then continue the studies as usual.

The syllabus which I assigned myself to be finished by November is on track and it is a relief for me,despite joining the research lab I have not lagged behind and thus I feel satisfied as far as my studies are concerned at the moment.Let's hope I clear the exam I'm preparing for,comfortably which will help me in the long run.I don't plan to take up a job anytime soon as I feel,my place is somewhere different from there.So,I have to keep working hard in order to succeed.

On a personal front though,I have a lot of work to do.Often at times I feel,I have a mechanism to deal with the problems of day to day life yet most of the times I am clueless.Sometimes I feel like I am different form others while sometimes i feel I don't belong among the people.I have a hermit kind of mind and really don't want to interact with a lot of people.Yet,when it comes to day to day life I have to deal with a lot of people.I have to listen to people who irritate me,I have to listen to people who also care for me.Really,it feels like a burden when you see people caring for you and you can't love them back.I often encounter this and I have no solution for this.Lets hope I keep improving day by day and eventually will be able to live calmly with no regrets what so ever!!!!

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