So after
quite some time,I'm back here writing once again!There has been a
gap of about a month or so,and yes I felt like I was quite busy these
days.The festivals have almost passed.We had a good Diwali week,it
was fun.These days,I have been busy preparing for my entrance exams
and sometimes though,I lose track.
A few
days back,I set up a schedule and I have been almost following it
till today,but there is a certain lack of concentration occasionally.I
tend to lose my concentration quite often and it is not a helpful
sign for me.I have been studying slowly but steadily and will be able
to complete my syllabus in time.Now I have confidence and clearing
the exams seems a good possibility but still there is some element of
self doubt.I think it is necessary to keep our over confidence in
check.I have been sitting at home for the past two months and now I
am looking forward to getting out.In august,I had an opportunity to
visit Varanasi for a week and I enjoyed it a lot.Now as I progress
and November is about to pass,I think in the month of December I'll
have some leisure time and I should make the most of it by getting
out of here for some time.This will charge me up and will also help
in boosting my preparation.
Meanwhile,here
in Delhi,there is a trade fair coming up and like every year ,I will
not be missing it.The weather is getting pleasant these days and yes
winters are about to come.Personally,I love winters.We can travel
throughout the day,enjoy the sunshine and then sip some hot tea
wherever we might find it.Winters are fun.I usually get out on
Sundays during the winter months and spend the day at some market or
any other public place.The zoo is one of the best places to visit
during the Sundays of the winter.Every Sunday seems like a picnic and
the market places flooded with people is really a treat to watch.The
only problem during the winter months is the amount of inertia we
feel when getting out of our beds!Really,often at times it takes half
an hour for me to get up and pick up my toothbrush in the washroom!
These
winters are going to be monotonous as far as I am concerned.I don't
have to go to college regularly,I don't have to spend time with my
friends,all I am left with is the study.So i have to study on a daily
basis and with Sundays off I'll try to beat the monotony.In the
immediate future,I plan to get out of here for 4-5 days probably in
December so that I can recharge myself,and then continue the studies
as usual.
The
syllabus which I assigned myself to be finished by November is on
track and it is a relief for me,despite joining the research lab I
have not lagged behind and thus I feel satisfied as far as my studies
are concerned at the moment.Let's hope I clear the exam I'm preparing
for,comfortably which will help me in the long run.I don't plan to
take up a job anytime soon as I feel,my place is somewhere different
from there.So,I have to keep working hard in order to succeed.
On a
personal front though,I have a lot of work to do.Often at times I
feel,I have a mechanism to deal with the problems of day to day life
yet most of the times I am clueless.Sometimes I feel like I am
different form others while sometimes i feel I don't belong among the
people.I have a hermit kind of mind and really don't want to interact
with a lot of people.Yet,when it comes to day to day life I have to
deal with a lot of people.I have to listen to people who irritate
me,I have to listen to people who also care for me.Really,it feels
like a burden when you see people caring for you and you can't love
them back.I often encounter this and I have no solution for this.Lets
hope I keep improving day by day and eventually will be able to live
calmly with no regrets what so ever!!!!
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