I have a
habit of taking a lot of things too lightly,sometimes things go off
the limits but most of the time I enjoy doing so.I am not someone who
picks up a fight over petty issues,neither I am someone who cries
because somebody broke his things.I admit in the childhood I could
have behaved like that but not now,I am matured enough.
People
have a lot of complaints about that.I am too casual in my
approach,allegedly so and often make fun of a lot of things.But this
is the way I am and it is not going to change.On any normal day,I
have a 1000 things running in my mind and like everybody else I get
confused the moment I wake up in the morning and start thinking.There
are a lot of things to do,a lot of plans to execute and a lot of
exciting ideas to work on,but above all there is a lot of
confusion.This kind of a feeling sometimes takes up too much of my
precious morning time and I end up sitting for an hour doing nothing!
For the
past few days,I have developed a lof of good habits,waking up early
and going to bed at time is one on them.I get ample amount of time
during the day to study,watch TV read other books,walk in the market
and then think about other things as well.I have learnt some time
management techniques as well,like I have fixed hours to do a
particular thing.Like I have to study 6 hours a day and I have fixed
them,and roughly speaking I follow it as well.
I lack
concentration.It was a problem 5 years ago and contines still today.I
don't want it further years down the line and hence I recognize it as
a problem.I can't fix my mind on a particular thing.Say I have to
study 3 hours but I fail to do it continuously.I have to take breaks
every 20 minutes or so,sometimes its just for water,sometimes over
some oher matter.Similarly if I read some book,I can't read
continuously for an hour.The mind is as restless as a monkey,and I
have problems bringing it undee control.It is not that I do reckless
things every now and then,but still concentration is needed.Without
concentration I can't succeed and do things I am supposed to
do.Someday or the other,when I turn back and read this,I hope to have
mastered the art of concentration.
Earlier
i was more concerned with what other may think of what I am doing,but
lately I have been following a different path secluded from
others.There is no need for approval and there is thus no need to
listen to this blah blah blah..from others.It hampers in the long
run.As a child I was supposed to listen to elders,follow someone but
as I grew up I started seeing faults in others.I did not want to
listen to someone who can't inspire me.I never listen to people like
these.I have my own path,which I follow proudly.Success or failure
whatever it is,I don't mind at the moment.Sometimes its the journey
more than the destination,which matters!I do contemplate
sometimes,about my place in the entire scheme of things and I get
confused a lot of times thinking over this.Probably all of us want to
know why are we here!None of us can stop getting fascinated by the
nature around us.We are all confused in our little lives trying to do
something which provides us a sense of accomplishment but if thought
over,we all are confused.
I have
not found any answer as of now,but I won't stop looking for it.
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