It's been a long time since I wrote about myself.But sadly these days everything seems monotonous.Just the usual getting up,sitting at home and studying!I've not met a lot of people for the past few days and certainly after the completion of my college studies,life has come to an unusual halt,of some kind.I've been studying although the efficiency is to be improved,but the only thing bothering me is the monotony.
I can't withstand monotony for a long time.I'm a big supporter of change and expect almost everything at least within my control to change periodically!I change my daily routine from time to time and even look for changes in my study schedule so that I don't get bored.Now,as a lot of time has passed since I went out of the city,I feel now is a good time to head out for at least a couple of days.And I hope next weekend will provide me the chance to head out and probably get some change in the day to day life.Now,I understand the importance going to college had in my life all through these years.
Well,I have to sit down like this for quite some time now and with not a lot of persons to guide me around,I thing it is but natural to have self doubt.I have had moments when out of my self doubt,I got low.For those times,I sit down calmly and visualise my goals so that these is no doubt left in the mind.Doubt is a serious killer.We can do whatever we like but never let doubt settle in,because once settled in,it ruins all the efforts we put in.I have experienced it a lot and probably will experience it in future as well,but each day as it passes I become more equipped to tackle such things and then,when there are moments when I defeat things like these,I feel a lot of confidence within myself.
One thing which I learnt overtime,is that the state of the mind of a person should not be disturbed by the acts of someone else.If I encounter self doubt and get depressed over it,it is fine.Al least I don't have someone else to complain about!And,if we have a problem within,it is easier to solve them using inner mechanism itself.It is necessary to develop such kind of a immunity so that acts of others do not affect us adversely.I'm too in a learning phase as of now and with a firm belief,I have no doubts that one day I'll master this art.
As far as my studies are concerned,each day as it passes,I feel like inching closer to the tests waiting ahead and with a calm mind,I try to pursue my path.The important thing is that I know what I'm doing at the moment and there is no delusion regarding it at the moment.The self doubt sometimes haunts me,but as time passes I'm trying to control it as well.I've never been an “engaged in the group” kind of person.Although,there are a few friends who too are the doing the same thing as me,I can't make plans for some joint study sessions as I might be incompatible.Of course,studying collectively helps and I might be looking forward for it in the coming days,but for the time being I'm more happy studying solo.
I have taken a chance,and I may fail.But it is the way life is,and we have to take chances one way or the other.There can't be any other option.Everyone does that,some succeed some fail but the world moves on the way it does!This of course doesn't mean we are insignificant in the scheme of tings but rather it is an admission that we have to take chances in life and fearlessly move forward!This way there will be less obstacles and lesser fear in the coming times ahead.
I can't withstand monotony for a long time.I'm a big supporter of change and expect almost everything at least within my control to change periodically!I change my daily routine from time to time and even look for changes in my study schedule so that I don't get bored.Now,as a lot of time has passed since I went out of the city,I feel now is a good time to head out for at least a couple of days.And I hope next weekend will provide me the chance to head out and probably get some change in the day to day life.Now,I understand the importance going to college had in my life all through these years.
Well,I have to sit down like this for quite some time now and with not a lot of persons to guide me around,I thing it is but natural to have self doubt.I have had moments when out of my self doubt,I got low.For those times,I sit down calmly and visualise my goals so that these is no doubt left in the mind.Doubt is a serious killer.We can do whatever we like but never let doubt settle in,because once settled in,it ruins all the efforts we put in.I have experienced it a lot and probably will experience it in future as well,but each day as it passes I become more equipped to tackle such things and then,when there are moments when I defeat things like these,I feel a lot of confidence within myself.
One thing which I learnt overtime,is that the state of the mind of a person should not be disturbed by the acts of someone else.If I encounter self doubt and get depressed over it,it is fine.Al least I don't have someone else to complain about!And,if we have a problem within,it is easier to solve them using inner mechanism itself.It is necessary to develop such kind of a immunity so that acts of others do not affect us adversely.I'm too in a learning phase as of now and with a firm belief,I have no doubts that one day I'll master this art.
As far as my studies are concerned,each day as it passes,I feel like inching closer to the tests waiting ahead and with a calm mind,I try to pursue my path.The important thing is that I know what I'm doing at the moment and there is no delusion regarding it at the moment.The self doubt sometimes haunts me,but as time passes I'm trying to control it as well.I've never been an “engaged in the group” kind of person.Although,there are a few friends who too are the doing the same thing as me,I can't make plans for some joint study sessions as I might be incompatible.Of course,studying collectively helps and I might be looking forward for it in the coming days,but for the time being I'm more happy studying solo.
I have taken a chance,and I may fail.But it is the way life is,and we have to take chances one way or the other.There can't be any other option.Everyone does that,some succeed some fail but the world moves on the way it does!This of course doesn't mean we are insignificant in the scheme of tings but rather it is an admission that we have to take chances in life and fearlessly move forward!This way there will be less obstacles and lesser fear in the coming times ahead.
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