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JUST MOVING ON-52


While we are growing up,we often tend to imitate others either willingly or otherwise.Sometimes it helps us in a way that we often get out of bewilderment and tend to take up a generally accepted easy path.While I was a teenager there was a feeling of becoming inside of me as well.I too wanted to become like someone I admired.But as time passed by and as it happens with everyone,I realised it too was a childish desire to become like someone.We are here for ourselves.
So being and becoming two different yet connected deeply with our personality come into play.Becoming is something we did in childhood and some of us still do childishly and being our selves is the one thing we do each day.This is not childish.How can it be?we have developed enough to look for our place in the society.We can handle the situations well,we can communicate properly.We don't hesitate anymore.We don't have to worry whenever we are out of the home for a night!What do these signify?This means we have become capable enough to handle ourselves.So then why would someone need a proxy sort of personality to masquerade himself!
Hence gone are the days I used to act like someone else.Now I have gained enough to be myself.I don't have to think twice for it.The world is ours for the taking but the thing is we have to be ourselves first.No imitation,no getting fascinated by petty things no acting like others.We all have been awarded fine personalities in which we have to have a firm belief.By growing up and typing up my ideas simultaneously helps me a lot.First of all I'm able to laugh at myself a few months later,just like we laugh at our juniors not for making fun of theirs but as an amazement gesture!We get fascinated when people younger than us tell something intelligent,isn't it.?and we laugh at it,not for fun but as amazement.
Being not too social by nature,I often get to stay longer durations of time at my home itself and it helps me a lot in self study and proper time management.Things get disturbed when I don't have a solid and busy study schedule as I tend to waste most of the time,like I'm doing these days/I plan to study at least 30 hours per week,amounting to around 125 hours a month.This kind of schedule will help me prepare for the tough exams coming ahead and in the future,it will only be the hardworking who survive.So working hard is not an option,rather it is a compulsion.People at the highest of levels do not have any genetic speciality,they reach there only through hard work.I am dedicated to working hard almost every time and hence on account of it if there is a duration,when I'm not working too hard,it feels like a burden for me!
Moreover,taking life as a breeze,I don't have to worry about the daily chores and I feel immune to it.The next level of immunity and probably a lot difficult is the one regarding human emotions.Yes I have to be immune to human emotions.I mean no actions of other humans should be able to disturb my inner calm.Right now I am as far as possible from it.People do affect me,either directly or indirectly.To say that I'm immune now is a lie which I can't sponsor.Although I may be a ladder above than some people but it in itself is no achievement.The minimum achievement is the immunity.Nothing less than that!
I don't display a lot of emotions and get kind of uncomfortable if others too do it beyond a certain limit.All heavens break lose if you lose you key...........kind of stuff is stupid according to me.Displaying excessive joy is stupid too a lot of times and I tend to avoid such people the best way I can.I never had a problem in my academics as such and any failure of some sense in all my life has been that I failed to clear the entrance exams.But I had made up my mind about dropping an year and hence was too casual during these exams.Of course I never expected to clear them in any way.Next time if I fail to clear them then it will be trouble for me and I have to look for alternatives then!But it is too distant a probability keeping my self confidence in mind,and I'll manage to clear at least any one of them..

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