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JUST MOVING ON-59

It has been a month since I wrote something in here.Time has been flowing as usual and to further utilize it,we decided to join some research laboratory to get some first hand experience of this thing.Now these days we are busy visiting the lab on a daily basis traveling from the south to the north and then staying there entire day.In short the time I used to waste at home and study sometimes is being consumed at the laboratory but still,I have enough time at hand to further my studies.

On the preparation front,I have been a little less than satisfactory but still I have almost completed the task I assigned to myself at the start of the month.I have almost finished three papers and have sufficient confidence in the questions I do.The only thing is that I have to give up on a lot of things now.First of all,s I get up in the morning I have to prepare myself for the 15-16 hours of the day as there is no free time in between to waste.First I have to look up to my studies and then study something related to the research lab and then visit the lab,study there as well and then as I return,I have to take tuitions as well!After I return from the tuitions,I have to study myself once again which means I dedicate almost 4 hours a day to my preparation which I think,is sufficient.

This is the first time in my life that I have been so busy.I was not used to it obviously and am still adjusting to my new time table.I often used to complain that I don't have much work to do and that I waste a lot of time,now that phase is over.These days,I can't even think of being bored as I have to do a lot of things within a day.Newspaper reading has halted for now,I have stopped atching the news,both on TV and on the web as these things are distracting to say the least.No news for a few months now.Earlier I had planned to visit some outstation place but that to has been suspended for a few months now.Now I just have to focus hard on my studies and the future.In the future I hope to achieve a position in a desired lab so that I can peacefully carry out my experiments without a lot of distraction from outside.

All the distractions are fading away as time passes and I feel comfortable due to this.Earlier I used to have a lot of worry regarding the various distractions in my life.Now I don't.Since I have been busy these days,I don't get a lot of free time to worry about these silly things.The only negative thing has been the occasional self doubt which disturbs me.I often have fear of failure,but that is due to my delusions itself.I mean there is fear because I have huge expectations from  myself.If I don't expect a lot of things,of course there is no room for fear or worry.

At this time and age I don't have a lot of responsibilities and hence I am sort of free to enjoy my life my way.Even if I make little amount of money,there is no worry regarding it as my expenses are hardly any.I can spend the entire money the way I want and there are no commitments so there is no problem regarding the money side as of now.In the future I look forward to an academic career so money has never been and probably will never be my top priority.I have to work hard to succeed and these days,I'm learning to work hard.

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