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JUST MOVING ON-58

Time flies the moment we start to realize its value,isn't it?Well,ever since I started preparing for the entrance exams,I was in the time management mode.I made daily schedules and looked to it that I stick to the same.Now,as I see,I have to study at least 6 hours a day on a daily basis and it doesn't appear to be a big deal.6 hours out of 24 is 25%,so nothing big about it!

But,when it comes to following it I find that somehow it is not being followed.Someday,I feel like I opened the books for 10 hours and yet could manage to study only 3!Sadly,this means I lack in fulfilling the target and is therefore a matter of serious concern.I take a few tuitions as well,to avoid isolation and make some money while continuing my studies.Although,it is not much of a stress but even then I have to put at east 3 hours a day for that as well.

Time management is the key.I do have a plan,I manage to execute it but not as efficiently as I'd like it to be.So there is some kind of negativity around.I feel like there is some burden on my head and I'd not hesitate in acknowledging it. I do have a fear of failure and there are moments when I lose my self belief.What if I fail?This fear of failure combined with self doubts often hampers my self confidence.But to pick myself up and then move forward with more enthusiasm is something I seek to attain,and I've been successful in doing so most of the times.My friends who too are preparing for the same exam,often discuss our study plans and all of us have some amount of self doubt regarding our plans.But then,these doubts are always there and we have to move forward and believe in ourselves.This is a very crucial period of our lives,we can make it or break it.

Time flows,apparently though,and this flow is faster when we are intent on measuring it!I have a few weeks and hence I have to get faster as time flows.I had been away for a week,but instead of a break,it was more of an exhausting experience.Being tested for 5 days and then not being selected!The only solace was that I got to visit a few places,while in there!Now as I returned,there was a load of study ahead of me and slowly I'm getting adapted to this.Well,if I succeed,there will be a lot of contributing factors and my concern regarding every hour as it passes,will be one of the crucial ones.I never underestimate the value of time,as it is the most precious resource we have at our hand at the moment,hence even if an hour is wasted,I feel sorry for myself.

All through our lives,time is the only thing which makes us feel alive,and of course the clock ticks as always in its one way flow.It won't revert back.At this moment though,we do have a lot of worries regarding our careers,lives and the future and amidst all that,there is a lot of hope and self belief.A hope that I'll succeed in doing what i'm doing,a belief that I will be able to do it without any glitches.And these are the things that get me moving.I never allow myself to be buried in self doubts although,there are moments when I lose control.Time doesn't allow us such luxury,especially when we are in a life-phase like ours.

Some amount of loneliness does persist,especially after college days are gone and now I have to do all the study by myself.There is no discussion,there is no hanging out with friends daily,and there are no classes to take.Although,we try to keep ourself connected over cellphone and the internet but there is no replacement of being in a group 'physically'.So on that part we have to work,as isolation won't help in the long run and this is why I planned to have a meet every weekend at least so that we can discuss our study plans and what have we done in the preceding week,which will benefit us all.We are here to perform,lets see if we succeed.

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