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JUST MOVING ON-27


For inspiration,I don't need a lot of external factors.I've developed an inner mechanism which I successfully apply in my life.But then how?Well,since we all are potential about to manifest,I don't feel any reason for weakness within and for the outside world situations I don't apply myself much where it doesn't require me to.The real treasure hidden lies within and not without.Sooner we realize it,better for us as we evade the repent related to it.Now,I'm thinking of kind of developing some 'do-it' kind of instructions for myself which which will duly benefit me.One I can test theory on myself and the other being the test of my control over my behavior.So here it is:
I need a lot of self confidence and limit it by keeping over confidence in check.Well,there are a lot of failures around so a sort of insulation is needed if I've to avoid falling into negtivity.The insulation is knowledge and appropriately placed humor which is working fine.No one can advice me until I wish him to.Same goes with inspiration.A few years back I'd proudly say that no one inspires me when asked about the people I get inspired by.Only now I do realize the benefit of following no one.Only then we can have a glimpse of what is hidden within.
To study is not an optional thing.There are a plenty of examples around yelling it at me.So here too,I don't have a problem.I take a passionate interest in my subject and ask others for it too,otherwise what's the point of wasting time over it!Sometimes though I have this feeling of nothingness as if I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do and sometimes it goes to that extent that I start thinking of myself as a lazy introvert.How to overcome it?
Well all of it is a process and sadly nothing is firm enough to hold on to.So do I need the belief in God?Probably not.Although we might find ourselves stuck but the reality is all of it is a process,nothing else.And yes it agrees with my principles as well where we deeply emphasize on non permanence of everything,mind everything.So then just enjoy the journey shouldn't we?Forget everything it won't exist even if we try until we perish!Life seems to be light and easy going for me at this instance and the only thing that worries me is a slight consideration about the future.I have a lot of hope within me and a lot of other confidence boosters as well but the belief that they actually do work will only come,if I try myself out there.Until then it is only hollow talk and nothing else.
Really,things have been quite uncontrolled for quite some time now.I sometimes feel like I have a lot of things to do in so little time and yet I'm sitting over gazing at others.I've a lot of books to read and then there is the syllabus which is no child's play.One thing is improving though.I was always confuse what to do after here,but as time nears things are getting clear.This is satisfying for me as I can now bank on myself to take good decisions.I've not been much of a social person so it is limited to a few behavior related aspects of myself,if I have to form perceptions of me.
Hopefully,next few weeks pass off as easily as always and I then,could move over and do something afresh,as there has been a monotony for a few months now.Although I don't think any change significant in nature can take place until a few months from now.I'll be out of the college and then I can think afresh,holding out the thoughts about the jam packed future study schedule ahead.

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