It has really been a very interesting first week here at the college after the break.I have applied my new way of thinking to my public life without much difficulties and I’m really going strong in consolidating it.One thing is worth mentioning and that it my concentration level has increased manifold.Earlier it’d be nearly impossible to stay at the library for more than 30 minutes at a go and today it has been more than three hours and I don’t feel the need to go out of here.I have nearly finished a philosophical book and now as I’m typing this I feel at ease.
But this is really a very huge thing keeping my standards in view.From being a rogue human to being able to walk on the path leading to sincerity it has really been a marvellous change.Now a few things come into my mind when I contemplate this change and I’d like to mention them.
First of all the change I’m talking about is not a result of something which was done extensively as the input and resulted in a awesome output.It is more like a few things required a little bit of fixing as I had deviated from the path,being totally delusional.The break in the summers this year proved to be the most important had in several years and I think it is going to have a lifelong impact on me.Moreover with a new heightened level of consciousness,my actions are certainly going to be more purified than before and in totality,I think I am better suited to intake the higher knowledge waiting ahead!It is really a very inspiring scene when we see goodness around us.I was really foolish to not recognize the goodness within me,around me and everywhere.Now I’ve realized keeping a polarized point of view is useless and worthless.Rather we should open our eyes and look at the reality.
Second I think this kind of a change was necessary at this point of my life.I study physics and the knowledge I’m about to get can’t be imparted to a delusional and non concentrated mind.So it is a necessity for me to maintain a concentrated and non delusional mind.Moving on my life was in shatters a few days back and I needed some inspiration to pick me back up.Happily it did not come from any person!An idea came to me and then I moved into a realm from where I can’t probably return,not in this lifetime at least.
Interaction with other people was one thing which was worrying me a few days back as I had not tested it in practice yet but now with a week in college without much difficulties everything seems to be a breeze.In fact my whole life at this instant seems to be like a breeze.I have no worries(seems impractical)but really I don’t feel worried at all.Lord Buddha said about shedding of load Is this what he was talking about/Maybe yes but then it means I have entered the first level and now i need to consolidate it further.Whatever it is the bottom line is that I have been successful in my struggle with the various defilements present in the mind and will increase the success rate until there are no more defilements….
But this is really a very huge thing keeping my standards in view.From being a rogue human to being able to walk on the path leading to sincerity it has really been a marvellous change.Now a few things come into my mind when I contemplate this change and I’d like to mention them.
First of all the change I’m talking about is not a result of something which was done extensively as the input and resulted in a awesome output.It is more like a few things required a little bit of fixing as I had deviated from the path,being totally delusional.The break in the summers this year proved to be the most important had in several years and I think it is going to have a lifelong impact on me.Moreover with a new heightened level of consciousness,my actions are certainly going to be more purified than before and in totality,I think I am better suited to intake the higher knowledge waiting ahead!It is really a very inspiring scene when we see goodness around us.I was really foolish to not recognize the goodness within me,around me and everywhere.Now I’ve realized keeping a polarized point of view is useless and worthless.Rather we should open our eyes and look at the reality.
Second I think this kind of a change was necessary at this point of my life.I study physics and the knowledge I’m about to get can’t be imparted to a delusional and non concentrated mind.So it is a necessity for me to maintain a concentrated and non delusional mind.Moving on my life was in shatters a few days back and I needed some inspiration to pick me back up.Happily it did not come from any person!An idea came to me and then I moved into a realm from where I can’t probably return,not in this lifetime at least.
Interaction with other people was one thing which was worrying me a few days back as I had not tested it in practice yet but now with a week in college without much difficulties everything seems to be a breeze.In fact my whole life at this instant seems to be like a breeze.I have no worries(seems impractical)but really I don’t feel worried at all.Lord Buddha said about shedding of load Is this what he was talking about/Maybe yes but then it means I have entered the first level and now i need to consolidate it further.Whatever it is the bottom line is that I have been successful in my struggle with the various defilements present in the mind and will increase the success rate until there are no more defilements….
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