MY THOUGHTS AND IDEAS...

For inspiration,I don't need a lot of external factors.I've developed an inner mechanism which I successfully apply in my life.But then how?Well,since we all are potential about to manifest,I don't feel any reason for weakness within and for the outside world situations I don't apply myself much where it doesn't require me to.The real treasure hidden lies within and not without.Sooner we realize it,better for us as we evade the repent related to it.Now,I'm thinking of kind of developing some 'do-it' kind of instructions for myself which which will duly benefit me.One I can test theory on myself and the other being the test of my control over my behavior.So here it is: I need a lot of self confidence and limit it by keeping over confidence in check.Well,there are a lot of failures around so a sort of insulation is needed if I've to avoid falling into negtivity.The insulation is knowledge and appropriately placed humor which is worki...

Complications,contradictions,misconceptions that's what my life is all about these days.I don't know whether it's my story exclusively or everyone feels the same but one thing is very clear and it is I'm all puzzled up in a positive way though.Life as usual amazes me almost everytime the thing is I don't find a way how do I fit in the scheme of things.There can't be that I have been given such a wonderous life and yet there is no purpose of it,not at all, my mind refuses to believe that.Then why is the answer so elusive to find,if it does exist.Well,can't say that but of late I've been thinking over and over about my possible position some days ahead of now.It is just the anxiety or possibly a mixed up feeling of hope as well as little fear of failure doing the rounds of my mind and I again run up to my source of motivation so that I can stay cheerful even in the times of mental agony.Agony might be a heavy word but seriously things turn u...

It's been a week since the start of a new and obviously my last semester in this college.Each day,as it passes I feel like inching closer to finally finishing my bachelor's degree here.Although,I've been observing myself all over but still I feel like lacking a control which I had developed some time ago.I don't know whether it is idealising expression but still I feel like my behaviour has not been upto the mark.I have had problems with concentration and as usual I feel a strange nothingness in my life almost everytime.It sometimes is helpful for me as I don't have to worry about usual day to day issues.The things made for enjoyment,don't entertain me although it may just be the mediocre stuff which I can't appreciate even in my dreams.I expect a lot both from myself as well as others and hence falter over and over a lot of times. Nothing is permanent and I wonder if nobody has ownership of anything what is this hue and cry all about.Honestly,...