MY THOUGHTS AND IDEAS...

A lot of time my behaviour becomes impulsive.There is a sudden impulse and here it goes.It is not that bad a thing unless you have control over the circumstances.I don't,so sometimes it takes a toll on me.I feel like I'm wasting a lot of time over nothing.I usually don't have a lot of things to do at my home apart from studying and watching TV when I'm bored so it hurts more.I sometimes feel like I'm really not doing anything productive and that if it goes like this I'll fail. I don't know but I am about to complete my graduate studies here and the way forward does not seem very clear.I've thought a lot over it and even today I've been thinking over it and yet no conclusions.One thing is that I have to go along what my heart feels like good but then the fear of failure!I guess you gotta get over it.All of us try and fail its no big deal.But we should have the courage to pick ourselves up after failure in order to succeed.I miss a lot of out...

Irrespective of the circumstances does it seem acceptable that the thought of a particular woman destabilizes an otherwise sane man?I won't accept it but sadly the person in mention here is me itself.The thought of this woman has haunted me for the past few months and I've not b een to get over it.A lot of times my mood just gets upset or some of my important work gets ruined and I feel helpless over it.Right now I was thinking about her and now I feel like I should not be doing this.How to get over it?Well,as far as my limited knowledge is concerned,lust is powerful and even the mightiest of men can be grasped by it.How to overcome this power of lust and get a peaceful and proper life is something I am working on but till date I've tasted only failure. Yeah a lot of people say what's in a woman!I too think so but the thought of the woman stirs up emotions which eventually get out of the hand and I end up doing something totally unexpected.The mind suddenly g...

Being in the village certainly brings about with itself, a lot of goodies for me.I after some planning decided to spend my mid semester break,in my village.It had been quite some time since I spent a week in my village and hence a visit seemed almost necessary.Well there was not much time for a reserved seat and hence I was forced to spend my time sitting 16 hours in the train.It was not much of a difficulty and I reached Patna at midnight after starting from home in the morning.Well to my surprise I found the station clean and hygenic,something I did not expect,not in Patna at least!Well I then boarded a bus in the morning and the trip was more enjoyable than I had expected as the roads have become extremely comfortable nowadays in Bihar and I was home at around 10.People in the village are extremely nice and the contrast seems completely when you just arrive form a city like Delhi. Well it is festive season here and Durga Puja is everywhere in the environment.People are extre...

Willingly or unwillingly each and every one of us is bound by some religion or the other,and we are supposed to follow some rituals even if we denounce everything pertaining to them.Well I don't want to go into the analysis of why do we do such things or what should we do rather I'd like to express my astonishment over the friction which often takes place between one's personal religion and society. Well I'm not a student of philosophies so to expect a great amount of theoretical knowledge from me is unusual for sure.I base my ideas on the daily experiences in the life and how do I do it?Well I minutely observe a lot of things usually ignored by other fellows. Well the topic I picked on here is something which is related to everyone personally and yet no one talks about it.In fact religion is considered too pure to be debated openly in this part of the world.I'm fed up with this I know everything-you know nothing kind of practice.We all have personal Gods ...

Today I feel like I should pen down what I've been feeling over the past few days.I don't talk much personally with people as I don't feel it appropriate to present your entangled life in present of others.Well talking of problems,i don't seem to have any but the underlying thing is that I've been thinking a lot over these days and I don't seem to be heading towards any direction.My life in particular is very calm indeed but I'm not sure how calm it'll be in the coming times say next year.Next year as i graduate from here there arises the biggest question in probably my entire life and it is-what next?And as any sane individual I've been finding answers to this very problem and the thing I feel lacking is proper guidance and motivation.i mean its not like I'm depressed and all that but probably a little bit of motivation is needed.I have selected a few ways for me to head to next year but since I lack anyone to guide me,the feeling of being...